Wednesday, November 30, 2005
sucks....under going depression state
many things happen these few days, very sad to say that my family is under going depression state.
Last tue, went to jolyn's wedding, then work for another two days, was on leave from Friday....just came back yday. When I was on leave, i went to the temple to pray for my family and bless them with good health and wealth.......its seems that my prayer was not heard....... After that during the evening, i dropped at Chill bar to sing sing drink drink....who knows, there was a fight after that....... spoilt my mood....never seen vincent so angry before....he was dragging the fat man from the bar counter out to the pool table and suddenly you heard all ping ping piang piang, the glasses were all on the floor and there he was kicking and cursing vulgar language @ the fat man.....that man really disgusting.....
On saturday, don know what happened to my mum......i went for breakfast with ney then suddenly she called me and scolded me..... don know whats wrong with her......then i was thinking the other night, my brother wanted so much for the nokia 6030 and keep asking my dad to get a new line....in order to save my dad...i decide to buy a brand new hp for him, so i called him and said i will pay half and he paid half, he agreed. i bought the phone back....he was very happy, but my mum was again...don know what happen....but she asked me to ask ney to come out, so i do so lor....then my brother paid me, my mum also paid me, said that she will pay the half for him, so i no need to fork up a single cent. and then she so good give me $500 bucks and said its for my bkk trip next month.... ok...of course lah...feeling happen mah...then after that i and ney left the house to go and buy another hp again....
then the worst day came....sunday......i hate this day---- 27.11.05...... my mum's condition is getting worse and worse, depression state is out of control.....my granny came in the morning and suddenly my mum broke down and shouted at her...... and threatened to jump down....whats going on man.....i got no idea...my dad too....then my aunt called.....and i told her what happened....she came shortly later...and sat on my mum's bed, its out of control again, my mum was throwing a temper and shouting here and there....then i asked my aunt to leave the room...... so we went to the kitchen and discuss....suddenly my mum came out from the room and went straight to my brother and cried and hugged him and asked him to bring her along to where he want to go......she lost her mind already......then all of us cried....my brother tried to cool her down and sayang her and tell her that he will not leave her....and coax her to sleep again......why....all these things happen to me again......till today.....my mum's conditions don seem better....i also don want to talk to her.....no point, becos the one she want is my brother not me...... i just another loner in the world...nobody cares ......i also don cares....now....even TPL also don care abt me.....what's is there to care..................
counting down to BKK trip - 24 days.........
it's me PEGGY again at [9:10 AM]
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