times seems to be very slow....another one more day of work, i will go and relax...... will be back in the office on thursday.....to clear the mess.... and then another busy week ahead, the first week and second week of july will be on leave again.....a lot of things to do....today just went to weigh my weight, my gosh, drop to 47kgs. I remember that was a period of times that i put on weight - 50kgs but that was before i went back to tampines. don know why, just do not have any appetite to eat and i don seem to enjoy food anymore, esp chicken.....why? no idea.
yday, eric called me and told me that he will be going to K song, then just now kelvin called me and told me that today he just went to k song with his friends and so envious becos long time never k song liao. then he mentioned that he found a cheong kaki who like techno and was talking abt the ex - mu at int'l bldg. those were the days i cheong like seow....but i told him, don don ever try to xia me go cheong, becos i already closed the doors to the public......don know why, maybe when you get older, these things are not important to me or maybe after the illness, a lot of things change and my opinions on life changed too.....just glad that i am still alive and god who is always by my side to protect me. I just to be a simple little girl.
today went for a job interview, don really like it, maybe just stick to the old one first till next year, becos i don think that they will accept the fact where i have to keep taking leaves...but i have no choice leh..so i decided to stick on first....even though i dislike coming into the FTZ. i feel so uncomfortable and disappointed whenever i stepped into this place.....bad memories, i just don like the feelings....i was thinking if i got the chance to get away, i won't mind going to work in Mac donalds....he...he..crazy, you thought school holiday job meh....
Was introduced to the singaporebrides forum by stella, in fact i thought what kind of website is that....you see she wanted to divorce the husband but in the same time she also wanted to wear wedding gown, but the man really hurt her too much. i went into the site and my gosh, there is a lot of topics to talk to. In a case, whereby a girl broke up with her bf after her abortion....that idiot, really a bastard. another case, a girl divorced one year but the husband refused to sell the flat, but illegally rented the whole unit and took the rental without giving half of the money to her. one more case abt a girl whose husband have an affair and was caught red handed by her when she went cheonging after her confinemants.....After reading so many articles, i was a little bit of disappointed with the world, a little bit of scared. Sometimes, it takes two hands to clap and for a marriage, it takes two parties to commit......can you imagine the divorce has been so common and has been increasing over the years........after reading the articles, feel a little bit guilty though, years ago, i used to be a third party and up todate, don really want a third party to come into my relationship. I keep asking myself why why why? What shall i do and how shall i do......Going into relationship is easy but to maintain is a difficult task, even if i try my very best, sometimes fault doesn't lie with me.
Really have phobia....but this is part of life...no matter wat still have to go thru....Oh god! please guide me to the correct path, and bless me with good wealth, good health, good family, good marriage and everything that you think is good for me.
it's me PEGGY again at [2:00 PM]
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