miya's world

2011-05-20T02:04:00.000+08:00

Today 20 May 2011, the last time i blog was in 2008 and that was 3 years ago, damn long. My girl coming 4 this year. Depression is coming again..........and my heart is harden, no tears. how i wish i can be crybaby but simply there isn't any tears coming out. and at this time i can't sleep.after so many years, why today can't sleep? i really don know what happen to me.......thinking of the past, its always happy to think of the good memories...... i try to think of the bad memories just to make myself cry but too bad, no tears.

My brother has been dead for almost two years and so many things had changed after his death. Imagine when he just passed away, i suffered from depression again and that makes me quit my job and now although i found a job that is paying better than my previous company, i don feel happy at all. thinking of the responsbilities of being an asst manager, is not good. Things changed so much. I gone thru my previous blog and saw what i written. i enjoy seeing him smile and his smile brighten my days, but now i seldom see him smile at me and he won't even have the chance to see me smile cos i already stop smiling. I always gave him that kind of face that he feel irritated and fustrated. when my girl is around, we barely talk and i don 't even have the chance to talk to him.... most of the time we end up quarrelling.......... becos of my girl.

he said i rather think of my work and don even want to bother about her. no wonder she is not close to me. sometimes she don even want to bother about me too....... funny, a mother who don really know how to be a mother. like my mum said, you only know how to carry her in your stomach for 9 months but you don know how to take care of her.

sad to say, my heart is very cold, i don show my emotions outside. even if i love my family, i will not show, i will only know how to keep it to heart. things are different now, sometimes its better to be dating instead of being married.... after marriage things change.

just now was online with my GM from 1045pm till midnight, so many things to report to him and i told him i want to transfer back and he ask me to stay put. i suggest that i don want to see my import dept being messed out, and he tell me he need me and is need me badly.....how how how? what shall i do, i already tendered six times and being rejected by him and ppl ask me to be firm but my heart soft when i face him, he can change an object from black to white, very difficult. ppl ask me to go straight to my boss but i can't i don want to overwrite him....what shall i do, i am unhappy and is it becos he need my help thats why he want me to stay, sometimes i was thinking if one day i being useless will he still want me to stay. why am i always so soft hearted? wondering and wondering why when i face him, my heart will just become soft, really don know. sometimes i don even know what kind of feelings is that. i hate that kind of feelings that i have for him..... why why why? its not love but its some kind of weird feeling, i don know how to describe,i feel so stress inside, what kind of feeling is that, why i keep thinking about him...... it started six months ago and suddenly it stop and now the feeling come back again, what is the hell am i doing, i can;t understand........ and just now he told me he need me badly, and he even joke, maybe next ime he marry me, haha cold joke sia. i tell him next life then he come and marry me lor LOL......

damn sianz................................ finally my heart is lighten now, after i throw out my feelings. see how lor. i don know what will happen next. next week i will approach my boss and request for transfer.......... in HQ, i am like a mouse, in Airport i am like a tiger. haha..........although its tough but at least i am happy there....... and i hope he can come back with me but i knowhe won't cos he said he will not go back there anymore,,,,,,,,,, but hope miracle happens...............cya

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steamboat gatherings before CNY 2007

2007-10-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

Group photo
Stella and I with Aizhen's 2nd son.

Me and ping ping. Ten years never seen each other after graduation.

That day was 08 Feb 2007. Was invited by Aizhen to her house for a steamboat gathering. Almost half of the gang we had not met for years. That day, wasn't feeling very well cos i have a stomachache, menses came the next day and the whole stomach was bloated. Anyway since then menses never came liao, cos pregnant liao mah. Ha...ha.... now sitting at home waiting for my baby to come out lor....he.....he......

christmas eve 2006

2006-12-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

Taken during christmas eve of 2006. A visit by my good childhood friends kelvin, meiping and her husband to our newly setup home. Still remembering that day was a rainy day........

2006-11-22T04:22:00.000+08:00

hee....hee...i took this pix when i was in SIA flight to BKK last sept.
Anyway, last week something happens to me that make me feel so scared, iritated and disgusted. Since last tuesday, i have been gg to Tamp Interchange to take bus to work. I have stopped gg to the opposite bus stop. Becos..........i met a stalker who followed me to work last Monday. Scared the hell out of me.........shit......stupid stalker, he have done something to me that make me hate him forever................I just don't like ppl to stalk me..........lucky..........due to tight security he is unable to follow me straight to the office..........he was asked to alight at the customs checkpoint........phew.........what a relief..........sia.

Now i have to wake up early morning and go to work early just to avoid the stalker......Its nothing actually but i just hate that kind of feelings.............arh........why?why?why? why stalked me?

Another thing, i had a great fight with my mum last sunday and we stop talking to each other for days.......becos of my stupid brother..........and then you know what, he made my computer genna virus and then i have to shift my computer to somewhere else to stop him from using and I had spend hours into reformating the whole comp. Yday, he came back and asked me where is the comp, haha....my mum told him, "spoilt and throw away liao" but he asked me to find another comp for him...........you thought linbei very the free.......he is also another stalker to me............yucks........i hate him......sickening fellow!!!

2006-11-12T04:00:00.000+08:00

I saw this hound puppy when i walked by a shop at changi village the other day, so i decided to buy it for nike. This month really broking and conflict month. Almost everyday there will be arguments about small issue with my mum. Then last wednesday, i just bought another 20" LCD tv for my room. broke again. My bones still aching till now, becos thur i so stupid went to buy the home theatre system which weigh 10kg and then all the way take bus and bring home, further more the stupid bus stop is not infront of my house ok........ wow lau, very fuck up.

later in the afternoon, still need to go and find the stupid cabinet to put my 20"tv........see see look look liao still cannot find one that match......haiya....

yday shirley annouced that 3K is having a promotions, $2/- one way ticket, then i immediately go into the website and booked liao.....for next year gg to BKK. so kiasu sia.....

2006-10-23T13:50:00.000+08:00

damn sianz.... and quite sad. especially here alone sitting in the living room. Yday was a public holiday but for me its a busy day......today makes no difference as well. My legs are damn aching and pain due to the long standing and long working. My hands are covered with white spots, the paint spots lah..... haiya....everyone seems to be very helpful but ney and i too busy to appreciate becos of other issues...... too stress liao ....family problems problems problems.......when you are old, you really create problems to the children? yes or no? don ask me, ling bei don know. i also very stress as well.......now then i know one thing, stress can create problems between family, couple and everything......... a damn good and sad experience......a patient person when come to stress really can lost his mind......... things have happen over to my expection even before when i become a mrs i already guess what will happen. Anyway happens after that........that already become my responsibilities to give support and do what i have to do................ sometimes I think, life really quite cruel. depends on who you are first.....this is what we call the "yin guo" "bao ying". In your previous life, what you have done, will reflect in your present life.....learn to "ren ming" I have no choice lor..........since young, life to be has always been miserable.....and now, still miserable........... i thought i have found what i have found, but come to think.......... i still miserable..........."ming ku"

2006-10-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

garfield

cute sia

2006-10-17T12:50:00.000+08:00

these few weeks so busy.... i don know what to say lah.........since 1st octo
my legs swell again, less than one month, don know swell how many times.....something is wrong somewhere. that stupid ox, makes me cry again...i just remember that few days back, i told myself one thing that i will not cry again but so "xie men". it happens today...who ask him to talk without using brain and then never mind, my mother and him standing at one line, breathing in the same nostril....thats why i keep telling everyone....they are "jie bai" . (sworn mother sworn son).

menstration cramp this month, worst.....worst......worst....its so pain and a lot of blood clots i found.....my goodness.......what is happening!!! ok lah, see photo see photo....below is the photo of me and my cousin at the dinner.........i look so old hor........a lot of ppl thought we are sisters sia.....so funny.....

lucky, this week i only work 5 days, then we were given additional one day leave due to PH falls on Saturday, shiok sia. How I wish we have more holidays on sat. I still left 4 days of work then can rest liao. but the contractor makes me want to jump, things are done so slow, i no eye see liao, all my things ordered already all have to delay delivery....I call up my uncle's friend today, he tell me he also jumping mad.......but what to do, we just hope everything can be completed by end of this month.....

Then you know what, about the haze, its getting worse and worse, but no choice, this is natural disaster, cannot avoid....wait for the heaven to be cool down then all of us can have peace. hope that everyone of us have a good heart and then don do bad things or else, more and more ND will come.....

2006-10-13T03:40:00.000+08:00

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this song is a very memorable song to me. the previous video uploaded also the same song too - live version (orchestra remix)

2006-10-13T03:36:00.000+08:00

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2006-10-12T03:48:00.000+08:00

Finally, Nike is back. Total Bills come up to $470.00. Really big hole in a pocket. As long as he recovered, the money worth it. Yday, after fetching him home, i took a bath and then go to TTSH to visit my mil again. My mother also came along. This is the 2nd time she went to visit her. Doctor said she can be discharged by Sunday so we will arranging to send her to the day care for therapy.

Last saturday, we went to Harvey Norman sales at the expo and then we bought a 32" LG LCD TV @ 1288/- + free gift LG DVD Player. Its so heavy. Both of us carry to my mother house and then just put it there for the time being, her house is all filled up with junks now. no choice..........who ask her to buy so many detergent, shower foam. Then the day before, she and my auntie went to Isetan sales to buy the comforter and then now she squeezed it into her wardrobe cabinet. That day, the electric airport and the rice cooker we bought, also no space to put, all stacked it on top of the LCD TV. I tell her we can't put any other things liao, becos our house too small, cannot keep liao, all else we have to squeeze it into my father's room. somemore Nike is back, the whole house will be in a mess.

God bless NIKE with speedy recovery.

2006-10-09T16:44:00.000+08:00

Mr Brown Show

this is a funny video clips

2006-10-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happen after i come back from BKK. Everyday i have been going out of TTSH becos my MIL is in hospitalised. What to do....... run here run there, almost everyday not enough sleep. The worst is that nike is also in the hospital due to mites infection, poor thing......my pocket also one big hole, spend at least 500 bucks on the medical bills. i really don know what to say. just hope everything will be fine. haiya

2006-10-08T16:58:00.000+08:00

Takako Uehara Kiss You jounetsu Music Video

2006-09-27T08:59:00.000+08:00

on leave also got no time to rest. I started on leave last saturday....went to compass point with my mum, auntie, cousin and my cousin's cousins. Hee...he...so many pax sia. after that went to sengkang to "meng xin" lor..LOL. after that went to po po house eat dinner and then go back to serangoon. Sunday was a vegetarian day, can't eat meat that day, yday wake up early at 7 plus, so tired, just cant open my eyes, but LL lor have to wake up. heavy rain yday morning, then quickly go shower and then to town to settle some verification of documents, then rush back at 9.45 am, to fetch JS mother go and "dian toufa", suddenly feel like eating mac breakfast, so we go "mang ga kar" eat lor, thats the nearest. Then rush back to fetch his mum and then rush home to fetch my mother to ang mo kio to meet my uncle's friend to discuss discuss, then rush to ikea, my mum wanted to buy something, then again rush to liang court to see any promotions. ha...ha...rush rush rush, then after that rush back to serangoon becos his father's sister-in-law is coming to his house to "see me" or "interview" me....ha...ha..LOL....another rushing day.....so pressure. Wat she ask, i reply lor.....so scared!!! Today, also went to facial morning and then walk past my ex's shop, and see his damn idiot face......then after the session still have to walk past again.....sickening.... then rush home to go century square with my mum.....I wanted to buy a gown....quite expensive sia....then she said not nice, too grand...she said go metro then i saw one green color dress nice, so we decided buy that for the dinner lor.....when meiping get married next year, i can also wear, provided, i don put on weight becos i buy extra small.....ha...ha... another two days, going bkk liao, then meeting V on friday for dinner, just now call her, aiyo, don know how much my handphone bill will cost this mth...... oh no!!!!

2006-09-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

Wow, very tired sia. Cos yday slept at 12.30am. Reach home almost 11.45pm. The gathering was late yday and then the whole day was raining dogs & cats....so feel very cold and sleepy. Just couldn't wake up this morning but no choice. Need to go to work leh. Today is the third sat liao.......next week, next next week and next next next week, no need to work on sat.

Later i am meeting my mother to go over to my Uncle's friend's office in AMK. Later at night, will be meeting Jasmine and her so so at Bugis for dinner. Hope today can lie down on the bed early and sleep sleep sleep.....

2006-09-14T04:57:00.000+08:00

This is my MSN display pix. A lot of ppl thought these are my 2 kids, lol!!! thats funny! Anyway they are grown up now.
Another two more weeks i will be flying off to Bangkok, yeah finally..........Today can say quite free, no programs yet. Tomorrow will be showering Nike because we have our monthly get together session on Friday with Binson and Jeffrey. This time round is our turn to organise, so we choose a place nearer us, PASIR RIS PARK. Let them travel far far. Saturday, will be a busy day as well, its not my off day. Its my working day, i have been waiting for the past 3 sat liao....after that, long holiday. Afternoon, I am meeting Andrew, my uncle's friend at his office to discuss abt details, evening time - will be meeting Jasmine and her hongkong Boyfriend. Sunday - meeting Vernie's classmate, Elie. Oh so many talk cock sing song session this week huh? But before i enjoy first, let me settle the 20 pallets of overheight 8 tonnes cargo first. Suffer first enjoy later.

2006-09-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

See! my nike in his new clothes. The quality isn't bad and was bought abt one mth ago.
Today quite tired cos i don sleep well at nite. In fact every nite also cant sleep well. Went to AMK yday with JS, HL, SJ, my mother and HL's mother to SJ's father's friend showroom. After that SJ's father come and join us too. Then we were there for abt 2 hours.....talking abt those cabinets, wardrobe etc.... a lot of things, but not yet finalised, he will revise the charges and then we will talk again,but confirm the business is his liao. He already taken the contract. After that we went to Mei sheng hang and buy clothes lah.....after that then go popo house to eat lor....
Today, went to audio house and see LCD TV, 32" TV cost 1499 leh, cheap leh but no $$. I will tell my mum tomorrow when she wakes up and hears her comments, she will definetely say can watch ok liao, why must buy until so big...and XXX.... Then i am going to tell her the fridge that i saw Toshiba $599.....but i think she will prefer mitsubishi, i also prefer that too, that one i saw in courts $699....I think i better go and see more and write down the model no and prices and pass it to her, she will go and source for same model but the prices will be much more cheaper. Last Friday, she told me she saw a marble dining table, $900/-.....expensive leh, somemore is jade green, she said is very beautiful. Green color dining table? sure or not? i think her intention is to buy that, but i will tell her nope nope nope.....even though i havent seen it myself, but green color dining table.....not my cup of tea.

bosses are assholes

2006-09-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

Bosses are assholes, in order for them to maintain their high cost of living, they fuck care so much abt you. how much hard work you put, how much you sacrifice for the company. what's the crap!!! don waste your time, they fucking don appreciate sia. As long as they can enjoy life, they where got care abt your hell living life. they are in heaven, who cares.

I also fuck care. My " ah tao" also don bother, why i bother, anyway i on one week leave...that is not my problem, and he dare to also apply leave the same week as me.... even the two fucking assholes that particular week also not in town. anyway can do, do lah, cannot pack and fuck off lah, who bothers. not my business why bothers. look for profitable business? you wait long long, no increment right, fuck off, i divert your customer to another place.....you slowly wait and wait and wait lor. wait until your milk dry up also no use, sperm finish flowing also don have.

You like to do first day of lunar month, ok lor, i do fifteen. Its doesnt matter anyway, i happy can liao.

When i on leave, i switch off my phone becos fucking company also never pay for mine what, why must i on? for wat...... got bonus meh.....seow...

sorrie guys....very bad mood today, esp when i just came back from leave today......just cant stop nagging .....this is life.

2006-09-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

See this!!! Its my new hp. W700I. Exchange without $$$. I tradein my Nokia N70 and get this without paying any $$$. Great deals right! Anyway....this morning very funny sia. i woke up feeling hungry, walked over to shell station to find food........FOOD MART was the supermarket name but where got food? petrol, diesel oil a lot....... went to office but the door was locked. i was the first to come........don know have to wait how long.

Feeling more hungry at 10+++ seow liao, i went to buy beehoon mee + sausage + egg + chicken wings, wow lao, $3.30 i only bring $4 bucks end up not enough to buy drinks. eat already go lao sai, wow kow.... waste my time.

the day is still early.......i going off soon.........very tired tired and tired. i have to work three saturdays in a row leh, but after that i will be on leave liao, suffer first then enjoy, then later come back here and suffer.
bye.

2006-08-24T08:35:00.000+08:00

Hi.....take a look at this........she is queenie. My nike's daughter. She looks so much like him at least she don like her mother. When she was a one month old, she is very ugly because she has a black face, but now she has changed from an ugly duckling to a beautiful swan.

Last week, our office was undergoing some changes. Now the office has become big and looks neat. My working area has changed from a HDB flat to a terrace house. So Shiok.

My mum gave me 1K yday for my Bangkok trip next month. She said she won't be buying me other things, just give me the $$$ and enjoy myself. Anyway, i will save the $$$ up. There is still a lot of things to settle for the next few months.

Today Lawrence sms me. He wrote " hi X-wife, hee.hee...today is the last day of seven month and there is another seven month coming. Aren't you superstitious. Seow.....i think something wrong with his mind. In the end, i call him up and screw him up..........

This few weeks, i will monitor my condition again. I always feel very restless and also giddy. I don know what happen to me and my appetite is bad. I just cant eat too much and my weight has gone down. I am thinking of going to see a doctor to request for a referral of a pychologist. My mind is moving 24 hours and even though i sleep, the mind is still spinning......i really wish i can fall into a deep sleep. I wonder next month when i on 10 days leave, can i really relax. i don know what to do now.

Walk one step and calculate one step lor

2006-08-13T04:00:00.000+08:00

Hi all, again so long never blog. very busy lah. Sickening, my poor nike, got to bring him see doctor again. Three weeks ago already went for injection got better and he has now become a vegetarian but still the condition got worsen. Later bringing him back to the uncle to see what he can do for him. very sad to see him like that. My mummy said why i keep scolding him. He is very itchy therefore scold him also no use, he will still scratch. haiya don know lah.

this month very tight leh. pay abt 700 plus of the credit bills next month also 700 plus.... got a lot of things to settle. going to BKK next month, taking SQ is very dee exp. fuel + tax itself already 100plus. no choice becos no other airlines offer the time i want. no choice lor. Anway already next month i will be on leave 23 sept till 1st oct. so many days sia. anyway my boss giving me additional 3 days leave so shiok sia. So this year i got a total of 18 days which include the polling day leave. but i come back office, i will mad woman becos i need to clear a lot of backlog haiya. wish me good luck k.

2006-07-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

14 days never blog sia. anyway a lot of things happen these 14 days. you know what, on the 1st july 2006, went to rivervale mall to change the fila shirt lah, size too big, that ox cannot wear, next time, i don anyhow buy liao, waste my time and effort. on the way to that place passed an accident scene. sickening sia, my temper was to the extreme, don know what happen. i screamed at that ox for so busybody, the two lanes are fucking jam liao, then he dared to stare at me back. i was angry till the next day, don know why lah. but the next day then i know why...... haiya, adam was involved in the accident, my goodness!!! surprising....i cried and kena scolded......shit!!! this is terrible.... for the past one week, its so terrible... at that point of time, no head no tail mah, haiya the whole of my life was in a mess cant think lah......i pray everyday for his speedy recovery lah anyway....learn to forgive and forget - that is my theme. people tend to do something when they are foolish or when their mind are not right...this is karma i believe, retribution or not, i believe it is.... but since already paid back....we call it quits...... nobody owns nobody.... this is what i have been thinking and life will start afresh........i will continue to do some soul searching and i am still searching and searching.......my time is not ripe......i want to have some supernatural powers and to help ppl that needs my help....can you believe i want to be a bomoh........but no ability.

2006-07-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

This week is a very smooth week. Nothing happens and everything is fine and doing very well. Went back very early almost everyday. Before 5.40pm, i already ran out of the office.

1) Monday was a vegetarian day for me. Take 89 to West Plaza to make my contact lens and also have a vegetarian feast. The bus were so crowded and i fell asleep. Wow ordered a pineapple rice and fish and chips. These vegetarian food was perfect. Can you imagine they really put the rice on top of the pineapple. The Fish and chips were damn good although its vegetarian, but really very delicious leh. Today also went Finnair for interview, no comments leh.

2) Tuesday, I went back early at abt 5.20pm becos i got an appointment at IMM at 7.30pm. Took 89 to compassvale to meet that ox. Whenever i reached loyang point, i will feel very sleepy and somemore the bus were so crowded. Very tired sia. After the appt, went to eat long john, damn hungry sia.

3)Wednesday, also nothing happen. Went back early at 5.30pm then took 89, as usual crowded and then went to west plaza to collect my lens and thinking of eating the vegetarian food there, but too bad they don sell what i wanna eat. so no choice went to Circuits road ( our usual vegetarian corner) to eat lor.

4) Thursday, again nothing much to do. Received an email from my head, saying "please continue to give support to the company, and we will review increment abt 1-2 months" so happy sia. Actually, heard that we going to shift to blk d, but everyone complained that not convenient. For me....i wanted to shift to blk d becos got canteen, i don mind eating those things there, becos i lazy, for blk e, becos the building is much more newer than the rest. i just don like blk c leh. so old liao. But later heard that boss want my head to go 5th floor to take a look at the unit. Today went back early as well, went to century square to eat sushi. I got the discount voucher from metro and was thinking that the ox may need it to buy his long sleeve shirt, but he complained so uncle. Always thinking of his "domachi". Never see a guy in my life so heow like a zar bor. He very very the "ai mei". Aiyo..really cannot tahan.

5) Friday, again no shipment at all. nothing to do. no cigarette with me today. met pinpin in the morning before going to work, so i got free stick. Then after that, went to the warehouse, she passed me another stick, then i took one from my head. heard that we are still searching for a unit in blk c. we all surrounded my head and talked abt the unit until he cant tahan then he switch on the da chang jin song so loud, everybody ran away. after that we surrounded him again and talk abt it, we heard that nnr is going to shift, so i quickly msn my nnr friend whom i never met before. indeed the news is true, the sales and accts is shifting soon. today is the first time we met and talk, and he gave me cigarette to smoke. today free cigarette sia . I feel like smoking now but never buy leh, so i have a bad habit now. i got craving for ice cube. i even put a cup of water inside the freezer in my office just to make ice so that i can suck, so shiok sia.

Next week also going on leave becos my appt at imm will start at 12pm but don know end at what time. see how fast the thing takes lor..... i don want to be a barbie doll lah....."i am barbie girl in a barbie world, life in plastic, so fantastic.."

2006-06-24T09:00:00.000+08:00

haiya.......i am in a mess right now? can someone teach me what to do now? today i received three calls from the same company who is my customer. First of all, the secretary of the General Manager, then came the General Manager who call me personally........shall i reject or not. anyway its just only the final interview and to choose between 1 ppl out of 3 wat......what's there to be afraid.... but a little bit of stress.......you know pre-mxxxxxx stress........don want how to manage, nobody to help me, shall i go or shall i not go......crazy crazy crazy, to do or not to do......

after reading the forum from the website of S'pore B, a little bit of scared sia..... shall i consider or not consider? or just go ahead or maybe that is the only who is different from others, a lao shi one leh.......haiya.......one bitten, very scared. must be prepared......shall i go for the pre-w course or not. i think i need a pychologist to advise me......think too much....... in this world, there are different kind of species around, bad, good, poisonous, non-poisonous, cold-blooded, hot-blooded, ugly, pretty.......you just cant differentiate you know yeh....its not written on the forehead. i have gone thru a good experience, its up to me to trust or not to trust. now i onli trust myself....... man's heart cant see thru naked eyes.....believe me, you will regret. here a good example sitting down here, who got cursed.......and almost lost the life.......believe me.....only trust yourself and god who live within us.......no more....... sometimes its not your feeling that makes you decide but its some unseen forces that is creating chaos..... these are some strange things which science is unable to explain, but do believe in miracle...they do come by......

2006-06-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

back again! yday came back very late in Singapore. heard these few days raining season in sin ah? back to work today....tot that will be very busy 2day, but then..... so free at work, no shipment today, just clear the backlog only.....my good disciple has done a great job when i not around.....everything is in order......not so stress liao....

went shopping like hell these few days, bought 4 pairs of shoes, damn cheap and they are having sales....i bought the shoes all less than one hundred buck....

today called my sister and we talked quite long, then msn stella talk abt the divorce matter.....after that....after work, call her again....chat lah....then went to bedok interchange and have one big hole in my pocket....no choice....these few months....really have to spend a lot of money,.....i save like crazy....but still unable to keep the $$$......... still got somemore to come....at least one problem solve liao....still got somemore to come....don want to think.......next monday and wednesday, is vegetarian day for me.....only tuesday, i can eat meat.....and also going for appt after work over at jurong side...... very busy sia........don know what to say..... good luck to me.....

GOD IS GREAT!!! May god bless me with good health, good wealth, good family and everything that is good....... may god stay by my side to continue to protect me from devil, evil and satan!!! May god give us the moral support in everything we do....amen.

2006-06-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

times seems to be very slow....another one more day of work, i will go and relax...... will be back in the office on thursday.....to clear the mess.... and then another busy week ahead, the first week and second week of july will be on leave again.....a lot of things to do....today just went to weigh my weight, my gosh, drop to 47kgs. I remember that was a period of times that i put on weight - 50kgs but that was before i went back to tampines. don know why, just do not have any appetite to eat and i don seem to enjoy food anymore, esp chicken.....why? no idea.

yday, eric called me and told me that he will be going to K song, then just now kelvin called me and told me that today he just went to k song with his friends and so envious becos long time never k song liao. then he mentioned that he found a cheong kaki who like techno and was talking abt the ex - mu at int'l bldg. those were the days i cheong like seow....but i told him, don don ever try to xia me go cheong, becos i already closed the doors to the public......don know why, maybe when you get older, these things are not important to me or maybe after the illness, a lot of things change and my opinions on life changed too.....just glad that i am still alive and god who is always by my side to protect me. I just to be a simple little girl.

today went for a job interview, don really like it, maybe just stick to the old one first till next year, becos i don think that they will accept the fact where i have to keep taking leaves...but i have no choice leh..so i decided to stick on first....even though i dislike coming into the FTZ. i feel so uncomfortable and disappointed whenever i stepped into this place.....bad memories, i just don like the feelings....i was thinking if i got the chance to get away, i won't mind going to work in Mac donalds....he...he..crazy, you thought school holiday job meh....

Was introduced to the singaporebrides forum by stella, in fact i thought what kind of website is that....you see she wanted to divorce the husband but in the same time she also wanted to wear wedding gown, but the man really hurt her too much. i went into the site and my gosh, there is a lot of topics to talk to. In a case, whereby a girl broke up with her bf after her abortion....that idiot, really a bastard. another case, a girl divorced one year but the husband refused to sell the flat, but illegally rented the whole unit and took the rental without giving half of the money to her. one more case abt a girl whose husband have an affair and was caught red handed by her when she went cheonging after her confinemants.....After reading so many articles, i was a little bit of disappointed with the world, a little bit of scared. Sometimes, it takes two hands to clap and for a marriage, it takes two parties to commit......can you imagine the divorce has been so common and has been increasing over the years........after reading the articles, feel a little bit guilty though, years ago, i used to be a third party and up todate, don really want a third party to come into my relationship. I keep asking myself why why why? What shall i do and how shall i do......Going into relationship is easy but to maintain is a difficult task, even if i try my very best, sometimes fault doesn't lie with me.
Really have phobia....but this is part of life...no matter wat still have to go thru....Oh god! please guide me to the correct path, and bless me with good wealth, good health, good family, good marriage and everything that you think is good for me.

2006-06-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

haiya, very tired leh.....yday at least can slp well but still tired leh. maybe becos of the sweet hug...yday what did i do? oh.....i went to toa payoh OCBC bank after work becos i got an appt with the officer there to sign an important document with that ox. haiya....i rush like hell, i left office at 5pm then take bus from changi village to toa payoh, took me 1 hour... buttock pain.

after that, faster reach home lor, then my brother come back. my granny called and ask my mum where he go then suddenly he appear at my door step. so funny, now my granny become his mother liao....

today, nothing special lah, the weather cold leh and since the day i recovered from my illness, i already got no mood to work till now lor..... maybe my mind open up and wake up liao lor....last time before i was cured, i never open my eyes clearly and don know who is good or bad. everybody looks the same.... trust myself and god better. still as usual, every night before sleep will say a night prayer to god. tomorrow will be a brighter day. tomorrow should be going to circuit road to enjoy a vegetarian feast, becos tomorrow 15th, hee...hee.... no meat for me tomorrow.

i went to tampines interchange and all these jewellery shops all put 50% worldwide sale, but don get tricked, not all ok. all their wedding bands hah, only 10% to 20%, you wait long long they can give you up to 50% ok.

suddenly think of ming yang, a handsome man twenty years ago, but i think he is still handsome now, wanted to hear him sing again leh....then when i went home, i just try my luck to search for the song "fen shou bai zai xiong kou" (break up just put by the heart)then bingo, have,but cant download, so i just listen, i so happy can hear it again, i tell that ox but he just sit down there read the magazine so i also don bother, becos i fucking happy liao. then i found another song "qi shi wo yi wu shuo you" (actually i have nothing), so i also happily listen, then suddenly this ox reading the magazine behind me hah, also sing this song, i was stunt, oh my god, he knew how to sing leh.....surprise leh....then we two jump like mad ppl. i suddenly feel very funny deep in my heart leh, ming yang is back in my heart.....very gan dong.....aiyo. this kind of feelings haha, just like how i feel ten over years ago.....

i wish that time can fly fast fast, doraemon pls come and help me turn fast fast the time, i don want to stay at that international woman association anymore, i can only change job next year, cant quit now, becos i got very important tasks. i got a job offer also have to reject becos i will be taking a lot of leaves these few months, so paiseh lor....no good opportunities liao can only wait lor....

pain pain pain

2006-06-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

today is the first day........very pain....yday didnt slp well just becos of the cries of the two girls....wake me up........so sickening......i want to report police liao...... i am trying so hard to slp, in the end still wake up..... don know where they from.....sickening

this nike is worst, before 7.30am, make the stupid sound again........nobody like him liao except the two men in the house.....my dad and brother lah....oh forget still got one ox also like to dote on him.....

if you ever done a thing the first time, the second time, you should have confidence and but don know why leh...anyway no matter what, what ever you do must try to control your temper and give and take....this is a good lesson for me becos i am still regaining my health and try to do as many good deeds as you can in life, this will helps on your 因果。

let me share this with you: - the secret of 百忍成金.
什么事情看不通，做成样子气冲冲。
无端白事心火动，是否想做化骨龙。
有事不妨慢慢讲，何须怒气在心中。
事情总是有解决，不要弄到面红红。
苦果嬲坏條中氣﹐ 賺得走去買鹿茸。
君子不吃眼前虧﹐ 要把身體來保重。
記住百忍便成金﹐ 做人無須太衝動。
凡事應以和為貴﹐ 感情大可以交通。
四海之內皆兄弟﹐ 無謂冰炭不相容。
愛字能解萬種仇﹐ 莫把仇根來深種。
大事若能化小事﹐ 小事很快就無蹤。
只要一人讓一步﹐ 大家心裡樂融融。
表現自己的大量﹐ 才是真正有威風。
能有修養謂之勇﹐ 處世溫柔最有用。
顧全大家的體面﹐ 日後定有好相逢。
平心靜氣想一想﹐ 安靜令人百事通。
水落自然見石出﹐ 閒氣爭來過眼空。
試問誰人沒有錯﹐ 可容人處且相容
諒解對方的過失﹐ 贏得對方審感動。
山水也有相連日﹐ 人生何處不相逢。

Thats all for today lesson....will share with you again.

till the end of time still busy sia

2006-06-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

back again........ very busy leh......this time round really very very busy, my asthmas attack has been very frequent and is a daily attack somemore.....due to stress lor. i so scare to go to sleep every night becos after night prayers, i am very awake and cannot sleep leh......my asthmas attack also happen at night....i cant even smoke....now reduce to one to two stick a day.....the worst is i cant even walk too much, becos i got no breath......

will be taking a lot of leave from now till end of the year, a lot of things to settle...somemore i just recovering from the illness leh......my body still got a lot of holes, still in the mid of healing so i must be very careful....be careful of evils, devils and satan........don worry, god will be by my side to protect me.

this month, a lot of arguments, i said, its the ox problem....this month is not an average month for him, he must not any how talk or else got misunderstanding.........

yday, when i was @ IMM, my mother called me becos my brother so careless..... got cut by the glass and then have to go tan tock seng to stitch ten stiches.....

another 10 days, wont be in SIN, i need to go away for a big breathe of the natural air.......very stress.......after i come back 4 days, later, appt again......then another week, another appt, then next month, don know how many appt....wow lao......very stress...... august, sept, oct, nov and dec, i really very busy.........can i don bother so much and let my mummy and that ox handle,,,,,, i so tired.....i don want to be the planner liao.....haiz.....god, please bless me with good health, good wealth, good luck and all those good stuff........and give me your best wishes.............

bad temper

2006-05-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

haiz......these few days don know whats wrong with me leh.....temper a little bit uncontrollable.

Yday, took half day leave to shop with my mum and two aunties...after that we went back to granny house. my mother continue her mj session, then i nothing to do, sit at the sofa read my pri three cousin fairy tales stories book.....wow....long time never read sia..got cinderella, three little pigs, sleeping beauty, ugly duckling ,etc...so shiok sia.....

then after that dinner time.....eat already, went out with john, my auntie & wenhui to settle some big big matter lah....cannot tell sia...secret lah.....

lawrence going to ROM in August, but it falls on the lunar seventh month (ghost month) but he is not pandan leh....anyway he managed to find a vietnamese wife for himself....

anyway...today is a bad day for me lah....i cried lah...so sad, just becos my mother scolded me in front of john....then i talked back, she not happy lah....then i not in the fault mah...she always said i never switch off the thermal boiler...but only today wat, where got everytime? haiz...don care liao......anyway tomorrow eating vegetarian food.....planning is after work, i going to bugis to pray and then eat vegetarian food alone lor...then after that going to do my hair at bugis...then after that don know liao, wait for my driver come and fetch me lor.....bye

i am back

2006-05-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i am back after so many months....... really very busy....just recovered from a very deadly disease/sickness/illness....(whatever lah)...anyway i manage to save my life sia........(thanks to my family and johnson, lawrence, mimi, lyn, patrick & my relatives) who give me the moral support and physical help.....really appreciated. Really want to thank my mother & johnson who really put in the great effort to help me to fight the devil away......AND GOD...who stays by my side to give me the strength and ability to carry on and proceed with my life.

I don want to emphasis what happen during these few months because its over, my mother ask me to forget about the past and carry on with my life and stop thinking abt the unhappiness and sufferings.....i am now eating vegeterian food every 1st & 15th month.....

Anyway....feel very happy that lawrence and johnson finally talk to each other after so many years....and after so many years finally get to meet stella..... and our meeting was enjoyable..... my meetings with patrick and lyn was also enjoyable too.

I am still recovering and is proceeding to another new stage of my life......... god is great and bless everybody around me with good faith.

Cya

year 2006 has started

2006-01-17T10:05:00.000+08:00

haiz..... few weeks never on the web....don even have chance to say happy new year 2006 to fellow men..... new year day, went to bugis with my auntie, cousin and mum. Then i and Ney went to watch movie lor, very funny show, i think its call a chinese tall story.......nothing special happen this few weeks...somemore CNY round the corner liao, but just don have the mood..... anyway i will be away again on the 15th day of CNY, will come back 4 days later. just want to give myself a break......its damn sickening liao......you know what happen, i slim down too much.........i can even wear the jeans that totally cant fit me few months back.......and its fits me very perfectly.........cant imagine when a person is depressed, can really lose weight........ now i know........no jokes men.....now i like a bamboo stick......everyone also said that....ppl thought i was sick and keep asking me what happen, but i cant tell them wat happen becos........ too much to tell liao.....bye..........

merry christmas

2005-12-29T10:12:00.000+08:00

Wow...damn long never blog liao, cos very tired mah. just came back from Bangkok.....walk until the legs nearly drop.... shop till my pockets come back with a big hole...spend so much money buying things for my family......
You know what....before i went to BKK that afternoon, i took a half day leave.....to buy christmas present for Ney.... i bought a titus watch with the word "Tian chang ti jiu" engraved behind..... then i packed the boxes with the wrapper and hide it inside my luggage. Hee...hee...actually we already told each other that we will not be buying any christmas present but i quietly go and buy.... When we reached the hotel, i waited till he went shower then i quietly put inside his bag. When he opened up his bag, he was so surprised and was smiling so happily....I like to see him smile, it always brighten my days... Anyway, he really very happy with the present..but later i also realised that he also bought me a present, so happy....its a diamond necklace....so nice..... very touched indeed. The most memorable and bigger surprise was during christmas day....i woke up without realising that there was a christmas card beside me (he put beside me when i fell asleep the nite before). I only realised it when he was in the shower, i cant tell you wats the content, but the words that he wrote inside.....damn long sia....was very touching and i cried....i knew that he is the only one for me....really hopes that we can really be tian chang ti jiu...... anyway......we have already made plans for our future....will tell you once the timing is near....he....bye...cya

long time no see

2005-12-17T05:50:00.000+08:00

Oh...really really long long time never blog liao.... works were so stress for the past few weeks, my inbox were being hijacked almost everyday..... i am going crazy.... last sat, went for facial, wow...the session was damn long, almost two & half hours and it cost me 75 bucks for that..... no choice, want to become pretty have to spend money mah..... then after that went to buy 4D, i never see my face after the facial, i did not know it was so ugly....the ppl at the 4D booth looked at me like i was an alien..... then i faster rushed home lor. ney was waiting for me downstairs with karrie and then we brought nike and karrie to Kenneth's place to cut hair.... then after that i rushed to Bugis becos i got another appointment to do a hair treatment...... later went to bring the two dogs back to my house lor......my family can't recognise nike so poor thing, my father and brother after seeing karrie, immediately went to carry her, becos she is pretty than nike mah.. my mum also said that.....poor nike, nobody wants liao.....
anyway......next week i am going to BKK liao.....for wat? holiday lor and spend my christmas there lor.....really needs to release my stress...... i am almost half dead liao.......cya.......

bad dreams

2005-12-02T09:49:00.000+08:00

haiz.....i was sick yday....very sick...and i slept quite early yday abt 915pm....my mum still jio my uncle they all eat supper. i said i tired and continue to sleep becos i was SICK.......without taking any medicine.....ppl who knows me will know that i will not take medicine...for wat?

don really sleep well leh....these few nites had been tossing around, don know whats going on...... sleep until my pooh bear was on the floor this morning....

anyway...i had a bad dreams, scary dreams...i don want to talk, but when i woke up this morning, i cried....i cried three times this morning....i had been a clown....last time, now and in the future, i will still be a clown....don ask me what does that means....i don want to talk...only ney knows what's the meaning of being a clown....i had always been a clown bet the two person...always.....i had been a royal friend, always protective over my friends.....but what i get? retribution hah....i don know....really don know.....sometimes, i can feel what i have, sometimes i dont....why....can someone tells me why.....the things is so fragile, i wanted to hold but i scare that it will shatter once i lay my hand on it........i scare of having and then losing.......

i cried at my bus stop while waiting for bus....i was so scared....everything seems so unusual....seems unnatural....why........

third time, i cried on bus 89.......why, becos i saw him.........my heart was pounding fast but i know we can only be stranger..... i was hurt, i felt the knife being stabbed into my heart...very painful....too painful until, my tears just rolled down from my eyes...its uncontrollable....at least i know one thing, i had not forget him..... its too painful.........

sucks....under going depression state

2005-11-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

many things happen these few days, very sad to say that my family is under going depression state.

Last tue, went to jolyn's wedding, then work for another two days, was on leave from Friday....just came back yday. When I was on leave, i went to the temple to pray for my family and bless them with good health and wealth.......its seems that my prayer was not heard....... After that during the evening, i dropped at Chill bar to sing sing drink drink....who knows, there was a fight after that....... spoilt my mood....never seen vincent so angry before....he was dragging the fat man from the bar counter out to the pool table and suddenly you heard all ping ping piang piang, the glasses were all on the floor and there he was kicking and cursing vulgar language @ the fat man.....that man really disgusting.....
On saturday, don know what happened to my mum......i went for breakfast with ney then suddenly she called me and scolded me..... don know whats wrong with her......then i was thinking the other night, my brother wanted so much for the nokia 6030 and keep asking my dad to get a new line....in order to save my dad...i decide to buy a brand new hp for him, so i called him and said i will pay half and he paid half, he agreed. i bought the phone back....he was very happy, but my mum was again...don know what happen....but she asked me to ask ney to come out, so i do so lor....then my brother paid me, my mum also paid me, said that she will pay the half for him, so i no need to fork up a single cent. and then she so good give me $500 bucks and said its for my bkk trip next month.... ok...of course lah...feeling happen mah...then after that i and ney left the house to go and buy another hp again....

then the worst day came....sunday......i hate this day---- 27.11.05...... my mum's condition is getting worse and worse, depression state is out of control.....my granny came in the morning and suddenly my mum broke down and shouted at her...... and threatened to jump down....whats going on man.....i got no idea...my dad too....then my aunt called.....and i told her what happened....she came shortly later...and sat on my mum's bed, its out of control again, my mum was throwing a temper and shouting here and there....then i asked my aunt to leave the room...... so we went to the kitchen and discuss....suddenly my mum came out from the room and went straight to my brother and cried and hugged him and asked him to bring her along to where he want to go......she lost her mind already......then all of us cried....my brother tried to cool her down and sayang her and tell her that he will not leave her....and coax her to sleep again......why....all these things happen to me again......till today.....my mum's conditions don seem better....i also don want to talk to her.....no point, becos the one she want is my brother not me...... i just another loner in the world...nobody cares ......i also don cares....now....even TPL also don care abt me.....what's is there to care..................

counting down to BKK trip - 24 days.........

2005-11-15T06:00:00.000+08:00

Yday was such a boring day.....wake up at abt 11 plus then after that bathe nike that smelly boy....he was so smelly.....every body in the family is complaining abt him....
nothing much happens yday, went to TM with ney to pay the starhub bills lor....you know what....his bills is abt $458.00...... that's expensive becos he always on the phone with me mah....he...he...
then we went home lor to fetch his nephew to Johnathan there to cut hair, then went back to watch tv lor then eat the wanton mee at home lor - self cooked wanton mee ok..... then after that went heartland mall see see look look then eat dinner quite late. who knows after dinner, my stomach pain again, then suddenly feel giddy and then gan ni na, want to faint while on the way back home. who knows shortly, lao sai.....then after that go orh....orh....liao.....he...he...
today, ney also rush from Tuas to meet me for lunch lor....we went to the hawker, so sickening....you know what, my hair was so smelly, lucky, i went back office put the estee lauder body lotion to cover the smell, or else, i smell like a dead fish man!!! yucks.....so disgusting..... count down to BKK trip: 39 days left. PS: the fucking tours agency really so unprofessional....until now haven give me a confirmation on the hotel...been calling them so many times ...... next time don use them liao - the one called FXXX stars lor......

2005-11-13T17:40:00.000+08:00

Hee...hee.. for those who been here and never seen me before, this is how i look like lor.....LOL....
today was a bad day....woke up early in the morning and lao sai....haiya....don know whats wrong with my stomach these few days..... i came back late yday cos went to airport eat swensen with ney and vernie lor........ you know what, i put on weight again.....must go on diet liao.....
i was having abad headache this morning, don even dare to drink coffee.....so jialat..... somemore the weather was so hot.......after i came back from market with my mum at 12 pm, i immediately went to sleep cos my head too pain, ney called me at abt 1pm and told me that he will be coming to fetch me, then i force myself lor, and then by that time, my face was as white as sheet and so pale......my head is killing me....then went to his house and continue sleep lor, cos really too pain......at abt 6 plus, we went out to help his mum to buy microwave then rush down to CK tang....orchard road was damn jam....i wanted to buy a dress for jolyn's wedding, but too bad, very expensive, all of them cost abt $130 above....its not i cant afford but i just don want to buy. in the end, i went to buy perfume - Pleasure lor.....haha...at least got buy something. after that we went to chill bar.....but it was boring there, so we decide to go CV eat satay......we met ah boon, meng song, xiaolong, ah kok & ah pong there lor.....we sat the table next to them, so pai seh.....don know what to say to them.....worst still, no satay liao, FXXK.....in the end, eat chicken wing and drink teh o and then go home liao lor.....its was so boring......but no choice, this is life, no matter wat, still have to carry on walking......haiya......count down to bangkok trip left.......40 days.........
BTW....TPL, still missing you in my heart......

2005-11-09T04:45:00.000+08:00

yday was a boring day.....i reached home @ 6.30pm and before 7pm, i already had my dinner, had my shower. My brother was there doing push-ups...... I feel so empty.....for no reason? i am not sure. I was missing someone that i had never seen for weeks, maybe! In order not to worsen my depression state, i went to sleep before 9pm. before that, i cried for wat reasons i don know!!! i really don know what state am i now..... its so funny..... i don even know what i was doing. Suppose to have enough sleep, but its not.....i woke up so many times in the middle of the nite, becos my heart was empty..... becos i feel so sick.....becos of so many things that i cant describe.....its was terrible....who knows...........what would you do if you see me like this, pity me, or laugh at me.....will you feel the pain just like what i am feeling now? will you?

2005-11-08T05:00:00.000+08:00

look @ this cat, so cute. since young, i always like cats more than dogs. To me, they are just part of me. I always think i am a cat more than a human being. this was sent to me by adam. Don even know how he got this pix. Depresssion periods starting again. no idea when it is going to end. don even know what am i doing again. I used to hate shopping, but for the past 4 weeks, i been to almost all the shopping ctrs and hours of walking had been made me thin and my tummy is almost flat. Its so amazing. Of course, i not using this to lose weight, i just don feel like going home, so i rather hang around at the shopping ctr. Been to 10 over of giordano, bossini, hangten outlets......i already know what they are selling now........the prices already in heart too.........another 46 days to go.......so that i can walk around BKK city to shop again......now i am training my legs...... i am going to explore the whole of MBK.....
life has never been fair to anyone including me..... if you have $$$ you are great, if you have none, you don feel great!!! yday i call xxxx, don even know why i make the call..... for wat, to listen to his fustrations or wat, i also don know. its so sickening, if he can control, why i cant.......... just forget it........why make such a move or create trouble......maybe too long never pick a fight, feel like finding someone to complain or quarrel? but why in the first place, must choose him? get used to it men?? anyway, its all over, why bother to talk abt that thing again and again...... life is always so cruel and miserable........ you can only choose one not two or three. Its either you make the right choice or wrong choice. its up to you, but don regret on what you choose, the path has already been chosen and the journey has started.....no u-turning...........no more...............

2005-11-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

1st day of november, is a public holiday. So tired after the war in the office, and yet i was so sick. Feel like taking MC, but i cant, cos my superior on leave and nobody take over my job. Poor thing!!!! really very sick, but bo bian have to dong dong finish my work. Later should be going to Orchard to buy wallet. Still havent decide to buy LV or gucci, really headache. see how lor......anyway still the same word from me again......i am suffering from depression......and living in misery.......pls don come near me..............

times.......flies...........

2005-10-20T03:45:00.000+08:00

wow times really flies..... so many weeks never blog..... maybe too busy recently. I just moved house recently mah, moved back to stay with my mum lor.....so uncomfortable and uneazy staying there, but bo bian!!! no place to stay liao..... everyday hear her nag lor, ma chiam singing chinese opera like that....she is always like that, must get used......

a lot of things happened these few weeks, don want to talk about it....so sickening, so sad, so dulan and so annoying.......

anyway.....now a little bit get used staying there, but i still prefer to stay outside lor.... until i want to sleep then come back lah.... to avoid hearing chinese opera, wait my ears deaf liao, next time cannot go cheong liao....he....he....

ok lah, thats all liao, have to get back to work......very busy lah............

sick w/o mc but with a/l

2005-10-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

Today, don know what happened again, woke up in the morning hmm hmm haa hee. the stupid nose again, i got running nose, thought it was just sighness. So malu, inside the bus, been using the tissue paper to prevent the water from dripping. so noisy.

When i reached office, also unable to stop....but no choice have to continue working. In the end, abt 1150am, i cannot tahan and my head going to explode. i go and apply 1/2 day leave and go back home at 1235pm. Wow.....i reached home and watch tv and then take a nap. wake up @ 1730 and then continue watching the tvb drama and then eat roti prata. Adam came back at 745pm, lucky got ask him to buy food for me. Then now i am sitting here, looking at my company email. Aiyo, i on leave hah, no body bother to check email for me, lucky not much urgent mail to reply. tomorrow then do. i just taken the panadol, but i going to watch my dvd and then zzzzzz....bye ! cya!

life so cruel

2005-10-03T11:25:00.000+08:00

I just finished edit my blogskins. In fact, I have spent half of the day doing my blog. shit, don know what wrong, keep hanging. Now my waist is damn painful, becos i've been sitting the whole day looking at the computer.

These few days happened so many things. You know, i am damn very angry......that's one idiot accusing me being rude to his customer, i hope his assholes being fucked by a sex maniac.....damn angry....how dare he put words into my mouth.

yday, i woke up early and then i went to the temple alone to bai bai and hope my bad lucks will go away......damn stupid, the sun is shining so fiercely onto me and i was sweating, i wanted to take the cab to waterloo but fuck, so many ppl waiting. then i took bus 81 to kovan mrt and then take the train to dhoby guat and then change train from there to cityhall interchange and then from them change another train to bugis, damn sickening......you got money also no cab......

i came back around 3plus and then, i watch dvd, and then after that, i go dinner with adam. I think the food got problem, i went home after that, then lau sai....damn black day. at abt, 10plus, suddenly feel like k songs, then went to KBox at Marine Parade with adam and sang until my voice break till 2am......this is to release stress men...after that go home and zzzzz lah.....

damn busy

2005-09-29T12:07:00.000+08:00

Wow....one week never blog liao.... This one week really very busy with my work. I was on leave last wednesday, went to HDB to surrender my house key and sign some document. Then Thur & Fri go back to work still work work work....Saturday also work, then after that, go back and sleep for a while. Never actually sleep lor, cos i drank coffee in the morning, very difficult to fall asleep but very sleepy lor. Then abt 4.30pm, adam came back, then we watch tv and then i was thinking to change HP, so we decide to go TM. But in the end, when we board the taxi, we changed our mind to go to Compass point and i bought myself a new Nokia HP: 7270.......
Sunday morning, i went to my mum's house, granny's house and then my cousin house. We went to TM in the afternoon and then went to SWENSEN for lunch lor....then walk here walk there, then after that i go and cut my hair. Return to my mum's place and then rest for a while, then go and eat dinner then go home, so boring....so sian.......
since Monday till today, i been working non-stop....really very tired leh.....why like that.......life sucks men!!!

yuppee

2005-09-21T08:30:00.000+08:00

Yuppee....tomorrow i on leave. nothing much happens recently leh.....so i also got nothing to write over here. so tired, these few days, wake up so early in order not to be late. Yeah..... i was early wow...... above the red line. Today managed to avoid the lunch appt with my boss, lucky, so sian, ask me to go all the way to IMM there to eat buffet.....look @ me, how much can i eat! Lucky never go, or else, i couldn't manage to finish my billing on time leh.........c ya!!!

sick......

2005-09-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day and acutally i can sleep late today but damn it, i wake up before 9am. Then i try to force myself to sleep but.....haiya, my head very pain and my running nose is getting worse and worst......eh........but i just too lazy to wake up, i just lie on the bed till noon and after that, i went to cook my lunch and prepare the food for dinner as well. After that, i do house cleaning till 3pm plus then i took my shower and had my lunch. You know hah, my arm damn pain cos i genna hurt by the stupid bamboo.....idiot....... now my hand pain, leg pain, head pain, even my whole body pain........so sleepy....bye bye............

tired.........tired.............

2005-09-16T07:00:00.000+08:00

i so tired........cannot wake up today leh......yday i on leave, but then, i don relax okie.....yday, my grandpa died 100 days horx, then all of us went to grandma house's void deck to do the ritual lor. e thing starts @ 1100am, shouldnt have come so early, shld sleep more. then hah, we bai bai lor, then after that take lunch, then 2pm continue the whole process. Wow lau, my leg muscle very pain leh, because we stand then we gui then we stand then we gui. At least lah, the sai kong say hor my gong gong very happy that we do the ritual for him. Then found out one big secret yday, aiyo.... my grandmother got pregnant with the sixth child, but miscarriage, then hor, they said its a boy.....so funny, how come they know...then we also pray for him, and gong gong's parents and the other grandmother lor........

then you know what happen, this jinjin so mischievious, always run run here run run there. she nearly got knocked down by the car yday. in the end, she go and knock against ppl car, then she fell and then her slipper spoilt and then got blood rush out from her leg lah...... later she was sent to the hospital by her parents. Who fault actually? don know, they said its me and wenhui who go and buy tibits, then she follows....then ppl also said it ah ling, never look after her.... aiya, a lot lah. anyway she alright liao lah.....

yday i went home @ 9+ @ nite, then straight away, i bei da han, go shower and sleep liao.

meet JJ & JY @ IMM

2005-09-12T06:35:00.000+08:00

Yday, was a very tiring day men!!! After work, I met up with my cousins go IMM to c JJ & JY. The journey was damn long. It took abt 1 hour to reach there. We wanted to take the shuttle bus, but the queue damn long, so we decided to walk, despite of my swollen leg, i still have to walk, abt 5 mins from Jurong East MRT to IMM.

When we reached the centre stage on 1st level, Sijin & I quickly went there to find a good position and stand. Then wenhui, huiling & her friend go and queue for the autograph signature & handshake session behind, the queue was very long. Estimated abt few thousands ppl queue for that. Wow i stand on the right stage there, wow.....can see JJ so clearly and then he sang the song YI QIAN NIAN YI HOU........ I tried to take the photos but my damn digital Cam, so lousy not clear at all......so angry!!!

You know what, i try to snap a few shots, but the two girls in front of me very the gan ni na.....whenever, JJ turned his head over to look over our side, the two seow zaibor, will wave @ him, wow lau, my goose pimples all stand up already and then their fucking hands keep blocking my cam. Want to "fa qiao" go geylang and wave lah.

Then after that, came the handshaking session, another seow zarbor, also very the gan bu, kao pei kao bu, another mother fucker.... she keep saying that ppl jump queue, so unfair to her, she like very impatient wanted to stripe in front of JJ....bei da han......look @ her face, all the holes, see already want to vomit.....She even scream @ the poor little girl in front say she never queue. I think something wrong with her eyes, the little girl was there before her. and she gan ni na, keep asking her to go behind, ppl small kid, she also want to bully, scarely next time, her kid also genna torture by her. SEOW!!!

Then after the handshake, finally JY went on stage. Wow.....I stand & wait for two hours....Finally can see him so clearly... So shiok!

After the show ended, we all ran like mad towards the carpark, my cousins chase, i also follow suit.....then after that we went to long john silver eat and then walk walk and then go back lor. send huiling go home first, then ah xin send us wenhui & sijin go back tampines, then after that i go back home lor. My legs very pain sia.... today wake up also very pain and tired......i am going to take my afternoon nap liao.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

nothing unusual

2005-09-09T13:01:00.000+08:00

Haiya, these few days nothing unusual happens. Life was as normal, work as normal. except for today. You know hah, i heard ppl saying that CIAS is on strike, sure or not? Cannot be mah, if like that hah, my warehouse already make fuss liao, still happily going there and clear cargo. They were saying at first, "WAT? on strike, this is xin ga po, not Ini ok....you think suka suka go on strike, you don want to work, other ppl all bai dui snatch eh.......try and see lah.

Oh the whole story is like this, I heard from ppl also lah, might be rumours....the contractors were on strike not the CIAS operations on strike, the whole operations were not badly affected but very slow movements for the imbound & outbound. I heard hah, the contractors XXXX2000 boss was gena sacked? Sacked by who? he is the boss, who dare to sack him? I think don want to use his service lah. Wow! heard that the coolies all refused to work and co-operate, just like secret society like that leh!!!!

Anyway, tomorrow i go and check check and ask ask and kpo kpo again. This saturday, i got work leh, damn sian. after work, still have to go to IMM with my two cousins. go until so far for wat? haiya, go and c and ask JJ lim junjie for autographs lor. so far leh...but no choice loh.....haiz.............

superb

2005-09-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

Yday the atmosphere @ e indoor stadium was superb. My ears nearly going to turn deaf. Everybody was shouting and cheering for their idol..... I was seated with the REDs.....(Kelly's Fanz were wearing red). I wished i was seated over with the BLUEs but too bad i was not. There is no free seatings. If i can seat opposite, i will be able to see Junyang clearer when he sang guardian angel yday. I like the songs very much.
I also saw JY's family outside before the show starts.....He resembles his father and his sis resembles his mum. so cute!!!

I was so touched by Weilian when he sang the 1st & 2nd songs, but although Kelly performance was better, but i still supported WL. I still think that for him to stand on stage really need a lot of encouragement . I don't like the jugdes esp. LFH, i think he purposely make things difficult for WL by composing that song. YUCK!!!! They are all so biased. I know all of them supported KP but too bad, the fact is WL has won, not only the CD sales but also the SMS votes. His supporters votes stand 64%.

Finally the result was announced and i was so excited, when i noticed KP pix was more than WL, i really panic. But when i saw WL pix stand put on the screen, i nearly wanted to cry out, he won!!! he really won the competition...... I feel happy although i knew that my darling supported KP and he has been voting for KP secretly behind my back.

The show is over and i wish them all the best as there is still a long way to go ahead!!!

grand final of project superstars @ indoor stadium

2005-09-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the grand final of project superstars and it will be held @ the SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM and also live telecast on Channel U @ 7.30pm.

Tomorrow i will be on half day leave, becos i will be watching the live competition @ indoor stadium tomorrow. Ever since, i got to know that Junyang and the rest of the 22 finalists will be performing together with Weilian & Kelly...... i was so anxious to get the tixs. Finally, i got one pair of tixs.

em......who will be the JUE DUI superstar tomorrow...... i really have no ideas, very difficult to answer. but i hope weilian win lah....... thats abt all....for 2day.....

surprise!!!

2005-08-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

Today, the 12 males finalists all appear on screen men!!!. Derrick is so cute, he looks like chipmunk, i like his bunny teeth so much.........Junyang was cute too..... but not all of them sing.
only jason( carebear), derrick, weicong, william, junyang and weilian performed. I wanted to hear Leon sing but too bad, he did not perform.....

I really very free sia to keep changing blog, bui sian meh...... ok lah, this time round, i changed to junyang blogskins mah, of course, very hardworking lah......also uploaded his song too.....

darling like quite fustrated already, keep hearing me mentioning about junyang here junyang there, but he too also kelly here kelly there, so sama sama lah.....

was so shocked to learned that my warehouse manager left the company w.e.f. today, oh dear, he is the pioneer in the company. no ideas, whether he was retrenched, sacked, resigned or retired. after larry's incident, i think i don want to know so much better, damn sian, everytime got heart attack, don know when is my turn...... i think in future, my work load sure increase, but my salary so poor thing, still remain the same......... tomorrow will be better!!! hope for the best loh....

anyway, latest news hah.....i heard music forest has signed a contract with junyang....surprised leh, anyway, cant wait for his cd to be in the market.....

oh no, its damn late now, must go orh....orh...zzzzzz liao or else, tomorrow late again, haiya i hah late late queen yo!!!

life goes on

2005-08-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

Still feeling a little bit upset abt Junyang not able to go into the final to fight with Kelly. Anyway, its over, and i think no point crying over spill milk. At least i heard a good news today. The finalists of the project superstar will be holding a concert at the Singapore Expo on 30 September 2005. Tickets will be available starting 1 Sept.

Today, I finally found junyang's mp3 uploaded on the net and i managed to transfer them to the mp3 player and it was shiok to listen to his songs again. I still like to hear him sing JIANG NAN & JIE KOU............. it makes me feel comfortable and also release my stress as well.

Anyway, if you want to go to his official website, i already link them.

competition is cruel

2005-08-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

after watching the results of the project superstar yday, my heart sank after knowing the junyang was eliminated. i just cant believe it and cried to sleep yday, and i knew i not the only one who cried, thousand of JY fans are feeling the same as me. My dreams had been shattered. My dreams of seeing Junyang performing at the Indoor stadium on 1 Sept will never come true.
I woke up this morning and my tears just could not stop rolling. He is the most talented guy that i had seen thru out my life, but why ..........why did Junyang get eliminated? the competition is cruel, 11 male contestants lost to a blind man!!! just cant imagine. Look! i am not saying that weilian is not good, yes, no doubt he had the highest votes yday, but it doesnt mean that he is better than Junyang. (44.5 points is the highest score any contestant has ever received from the judges.) Junyang is still the best, Junyang rawks.......he will always be my jue dui superstar.......
Do you know that yday Junyang was talking about his special friend who has been supporting all this while and that friend he was referring was JJ Lin JunJie(a local singer) they have been good friends and brothers for seven years since they met in St Andrews JC. He has been a great inspiration and encouragement.
Last night, after finding out the news of his elimination, JJ called Junyang and told him winning is not everything; music is all about passion and creating a space for yourself and other people to know you. Junyang agreed totally with his online game buddy.

Accordingly to Paul Chan, Channel Vice President, Network Programming & Promotions (Chinese Broadcast), Weilian led Junyang in terms of votes right from the first song. He also maintained that Weilian has been one of the forerunners in terms of votes since the competition started. Chan also noticed that Weilian voters differ from the rest of the contestants in that the number of votes cast per voter is low. This, could indicate that Weilian is indeed the more popular contestant whose pool of voters cut across a larger population. IT MIGHT BE A CASE OF SYMPATHY VOTES - WHO KNOWS

good news:-

Although the results have been cast in stone, all is not lost for Junyang and all his supporters. First up, they will be releasing an album together with the 10 semi-finalists. In the pipeline is also a SuperStar concert which will see the SuperStar semi-finalists reuniting on stage.
You can also catch them in a series of events which might see them flexing their hosting and acting chops.

I just cant wait to see their album to release, I dying to hear Junyang to sing again.....................

tired tired tired

2005-08-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

I was so tired these few days, i just could not sleep enough. I was on leave on Wednesday becos i need to go HDB for the first agreement to sell my flat. I went to Popular Toa Payoh to buy a very very thick biography of Mao Ze Tong - China Leader, and after discounts i still need to pay abt $55.00... damn expensive right!!!

When i went back to office on Thursday, i was so busy, don even have time to go for lunch, i worked non stop from morning till evening, and i left the office @ 1945 hours. Friday and today, also the same, still work work work, busy busy busy. My work just cant finish......but anyway, at least yday after work, went with darling to airport to eat swensen and then watch aeroplanes. Actually we been watching them almost everyday, but yday was different, we were just watching the staff unloading the goods from the viewing mall and darling explained to me how the whole things work. Learnt another new thing again.....

Lucky i got take a nap in the afternoon, but i still tired leh.... but still have time to change my blogskins, very funny right. today i cook wanton soup, at least darling says its good. tomorrow i am going to cook dark soy sauce chicken, hope that it tastes good....he....he.....

project superstars

2005-08-13T10:23:00.000+08:00

congrats to junyang for making to the semi finals 4, very very happy for him, at least i know he can make it...... hopes to see him perform @ singapore indoor stadium on 1 Sept. I was so tired yday and fell asleep that i missed the results. When i woke up @ 12.30am, its over.... but i just too tired to on the computer to check who really make it to the semi-finals 4. The whole nite, i just cant really sleep well, i was thinking who will be in. I was so worried for Junyang and Derrick, becos i know weilian will definetely go in and I was right. when i woke up first day in the morning to day, i quickly on my computer. yeh....JY make it........

As for Derrick, very sad to hear that he cannot make it. ANYWAY I WISH HIM ALL THE BEST AS HE WILL BE GOING TO THE ARMY ON 9 SEPT!!!

life sucks & the society is damn cruel & realistic

2005-08-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

This morning i received a call from my receptionist BEE. She told me she had been retrenched last friday. In fact, I do heard rumours from ppl that she has left. But I had not seen her talking to the boss on friday and i also noticed that she left the offfice as well. I was a little bit upset, cos she is quite pitiful, she is the breadwinner @ home who has to support the cancer sister, her husband and mother and she told me she collapsed straight after she went home together with her mum. Life are so cruel. Her pay is not high and she was just retrenched after six years with the company. I really hated the society....... Why rich ppl are always rich and the poor are always poor.
When i reached the office not long after, my boss summoned me into the room and keep asking me whether did larry tell me anything. I mean I am trying to protect myself and larry as well, i mean it is not a sin for colleauges to confess their sorrows to any colleagues. Whats wrong with that, He is only telling me that he soon be leaving the company and i will be lonely without a smoking kakis. Is it my fault? Although Larry is in the top mgmt but he knew what is he supposed to say or not to say. Sensitive issues like such things, we try not to get involve. Ppl are putting words into my mouth and are just jealous that we are closed. Lucky ppl only say that i am his "god-daughter" not his mistress. or else, i will go and screw and fuck the fellow off.
I also heard from Vinc that boss also called him early in the morning and ask him how he know abt those things, he said expected wat, and i can swear i never talk to him abt this issue and also don even have the chance and time to talk to him.
SPREADING RUMOURS ARE SO COMMONLY PRACTICED EVERYWHERE, NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO, YOU WILL STILL HAVE TO FACE IT, SO WHAT!!! if you dare to hold a meeting telling ppl that the CO is losing money and the last straw will be retrenchment, you should expect that rumours will spread as fast as fire.
DAMN FUCKING DULAN YOU KNOW
I HAD BEEN WORKING SO HARD FOR THE COMPANY BUT EVEN IF THERE IS NO BONUS OR INCREMENT BUT AT LEAST APPRECIATE MY HARDWORKS & SWEAT....... FUCKING FUCKING DULAN!!! KNNBCCB.........
LIFE SUCKS!!!!DAMN DAMN SUCKING, WORSE THAN SUCKING COCK.....

2005-08-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

I was surprised that derrick has another twin brother, i happened to find this photo and hope this is true... although i support Junyang, but i really find this photo damn cute, thats why i uploaded them into my blog...he...he...

Wow so many things happened these two weeks. Don even have time to blog. too busy at Junyang Comments boards reading all the fans comments and the wars bet JY fans & Jason Fans.

First of all, congrats to JY, who make it to the 3rd semi-final, i have voted a lot for him - he is really very talented. JY - jia you!!!

Talk abt some other things, last weeks my boss held a meeting with all of us. Our company has lost a profit of $350,000 for the past six months, and she will be going to HKG to try to find ways to salvage the situation. Another Sad news which I heard from Larry, my GM. There will be an immediate retrenchment, meaning to say to salvage the situation, due to overheads, some of the staffs will have to go. He told me he will be one of them to leave us. However there is no official annoucment made by my bosses yet. Will need to wait till tomorrow and see whether any new updates. Anyway, the operations staff including myself will be safe.

2005-07-25T12:31:00.000+08:00

Yupeee!!!! finally changed my blog skins, very troublesome leh....but at least enjoyed what i am doing mah.....
damn sian today, actually since friday already, i was on medical leave for half a day lah.....becos i finished my work then i left the office mah.....take the medicine lagi worst, so drowsy.......so sezzzz sia.....anyway i already stop, i only taking the antibotics, no choice mah, need 2 finish men!!!!

nothing much to do today, wake up @ 1030am then prepare the food for today lunch & dinner then watch project superstar repeat!!! at least i know Derrick made it to the semi-finals....however i still support junyang......he...he...

in the afternoon, still feeling a little bit sleepy, so went to have a short nap, wow lau sleep till saliva almost drops sia, i dreamt of gong gong lor, i told him that i like to eat prawns and crabs in cantonese, so funny.....really very funny....

tomorrow working day again......hope i wont be late again, i always late lor, so pai seh, but no choice, sometimes the bus so crowded, wont stop, then wat you want me to do, complain to SBS.....u think i can meh, i only small flies mah.....later get sued how?

ok lah....to be continued again..........

2005-07-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

Today damn bz.....work non stop since 930 am......really veri veri tough.......too many things to handle......u not me.....u wont understand lah......
yah...talk abt the dinner that day............forgotten that some roads were closed due to the NDP preview.....i took a cab from pasir ris all the way to city hall, first is the jam at ECP, then secondly, road closure, have to walk all the way from MS to Swistotel hotel, I was late for 45 mins. When i arrive, Minister of Transports, already giving his talk.....
Spend a total of $35.00 on cab fares and yet the D&D not fun at all, the performances are almost the same. Victor Khoo and his teams, bui sian meh........ But singaporeans really very realistic.....the dinner supposed to finish @ 2am in the morning, but i don think ppl will stay till so late. e grand lucky draw was held @ midnite, and everyone left after the lucky draw..... haiya......why like that.....trying to catch the last train like me lor.....but in the end also cannot catch.....

2005-07-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

Wow.....today's Friday!!! Weekends approaching men........ i was told by darling yday that he will be going to SAAA D & D this saturday (tomorrow lor). Feels so disappointed lor, cos i am being pang seh @ home again. Weekends leh, he is supposed to accompany me mah, why have to go? So I suggested him to bring me along lor, but he said, how can? Too bad, my company never reserve any seats for this year D&D, so boh kang tao lor........

This morning, i received a SMS from him saying that he can bring me along, wow so happy.......fucking happy lah....becos no need to be pang seh @ home already, can follow liao.....yupee!!!! So after lunch, i called carol and ask her whether will she be going tomorrow too, she said yes, her company (my ex-company) also got reserved seats, wow....we can go to the ballroom together liao..... Headaches coming liao, cos i really don know wat to wear for the D&D? The last time i attended the SAAA D&D was Year 2001, wow that was four years ago....but that time, i pontang halfway liao lah. So tomorrow i hope i can stay till the D&D ends.....so gan cheong leh, i think i wont sleep tonite liao, darling going to scold me if i make a nusiance tonight liao, cos if i don sleep, ha...ha.... he also cannot sleep.....he....he...

I put on a lot of weight already and then all my clothes, pants, jeans, skirts all can throw away liao, i like a humpty dumpty already. Can you imagine put on 5 kilos within three months, cannot be mah....but its true leh, i getting fatter and fatter.......how to slim down, cant slim down already.....on diet? how can, my favorites past times is to eat, sleep, eat and then sleep again, no no no way.....i wont give up my eating hobbies, you wait long......

hopefully tomorrow faster comes, cannot wait liao.......... i will update you after the D&D.....

2005-07-13T12:00:00.000+08:00

Wow....few days never blog liao....just changed a new blogskins on saturday....finally i know how to upload music, change skins and others.....yeah.....thanks to wenhui lah....still owe her a swensen leh. haiya....no time leh, how to go?

My new blogskin looks so the "qingchun"....ha....ha.....people who visit my blog must be guessing my age....he....he...dont want to tell you leh...

Last friday, i went to my colleague's house to play mahjong till midnight.....when i reached home almost one int the morning... so tired but at least, i got win a little bit lah, but don want to tell you how much i win......secret mah....

Then saturday, i went to Wenhui's house to learn how to change blogskins lah.....then we went to TM to meet her friends, then after that i went to century square to buy myself a mp3 player, but i cant tell you how much i buy....cos wait i cannot let my mummy know or else......nags again......so secret again lor.....

Anyway....nothing happens these few days lah....work as normal, go home after work, msn with friends, watch tv, and then sleeps lah.....nothing to do wat.....life is so boring......nobody adds colors to my life, so be it lor......... can blame who....blame myself lah........ haiya....shall stop, talk again some other time.....bye

2005-07-08T08:05:00.000+08:00

haiya.......i look exactly like this Eeyore, so blur leh.....i never sleep well yday, actually is for the past few days. yday the worst......
i got a damn stupid block nose, and then everytime have to hee haa hee.... thats why lah, no wonder don sleep well lah.....

i took the medicine and went to sleep @ 10+, but who knows i woke up @ 2am in the morning....then go toilet and then drink water and then zzzzzzzzz.....but don really fall into deep sleep, feel like the whole body floating, and then its 4.30am, open my eyes real big, on the tv and then watch tv.....5am, the stupid wawa, barks...crazy, don want to sleep, ppl want to sleep, wat a disturabance....and then its 6am.....i try to catcha some sleep, and then wake up @7am.......took a bath and look quite fresh......who knows reach the office, immediately feel sleepy and tired liao, bei da han....now hah, looking @ the time, i still got 30 - 45 mins......i can go back and zzzzzzzzz....liao, i already "dong" since morning till now.....finally ya.......time kills me men..........

2005-07-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

Hey...u knoe, i so poor thing yday and today. my laptop still hang after the 2nd time recovery yday. i have been shutting down for twenty over times since yday and today, its abt five times bah....cant remember, too angry to remember. i think the reason was i did not load properly bah.... i just done the third time recovery again, and it improve a lot, becos this time i was quite patient so, i think it was myy impatience that makes the laptop went gila, finally, i can go to bed without thinking of the stupid laptop....... wow........so tired.....it times for me to zzzzz...........

damn computer

2005-07-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

damn computer.......i really very fustrated with my laptop yo..... i just erase everything from my stupid hard disk and just finish doing the recovery systems on my stupid laptop....just don know why after that keep hanging and i been switching off the plug for more than ten times.......yuck,,,,,, cant even shut down. damn it!!!!!!

really down on my luck today. today, together with adam meet my mum, grandma, auntie & cousin for lunch, and my stupid nose cant stop running, in the end had to rush to the pharmacy and bought the medicine to stop it. really very down mei. hopefully my nose stop running any more.....

tomorrow will be a better day..........yeah!

29 June 2005

2005-06-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

Today suppose to be a memorable day.... my three years wedding anniversary.....but too bad, i already d-i-v-o-r-c-e...... so no point thinking of those unhappiness ya...

Weathers nowsaday really unpredicable.....morning - rain, afternoon - sunny - evening - windy, might be raining soon......

school re-opens but non of my business, cos i still have to work during school holiday..... so who cares. to me, everyday is just a working day.....

my nike boy coming three years old this year but still not obedient, like my character, stubborn and seow seow

sian lah

2005-06-23T17:20:00.000+08:00

today, the office looks so quiet. just like saturday when half of the office gone for alternate off. My lunch kakis three of them on leave two on Medical leave. so boring....... i also very free since morning till lunch. its only after 3pm that the problems start to come. dont talk about the problem, fucking dulan. just want to forget abt them. now waiting to go home lah.

yday watch the superstars preliminary contest @ channel u. so far, i'm very impressed with M3...first thing, he did look like my ex-boyfriend who passed away during a car accident 5 years ago. second thing, he sang "冻结"(dong jie) with M4. his voice really very pure and i feel so relax when i heard him sing, damn good men..... when he sang “江南”(JIANG NAN)that time, i just couldn't believe, he sounds so like JJ......my goodnesss. really damn good this time. i give him 95/100 for his vocal...... but he looks a little stiff and shy.... but i have confident in him...... keep it up boy(i cant remember his name lah)......

luck

2005-06-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

hey do you know sometimes luck realy plays a part in your life. But for me, i think thru out my whole life, 10% of luck but 90% of hard work for me. Even how hard you try your best, sometimes you just really get the best result.

I wonder what is the feeling of striking a toto, at least dont be greedy lah, don think of winning millions of dollars, maybe few hundred thousand enough already....... but to me, is wait long long, neck becomes long, also cants see a single $$$.

For me, i believe in luck. you know whenever, i know that i been having bad lucks, (esp for days, things weren't smooth), i will make myself a trip to the temple, to make sure all the bad lucks are gone. It did helps a bit, or maybe its just xin li zhuo yong, who knows.

Especially after i came back from leave last week, things are not going smoothly as what i have expected. My boyfriend also encounter the same problem. (Maybe both of us are being cursed, who knows)

The exhibition starting tomorrow and the bloody airlines, off-loaded the 3 pcs and its only in the afternoon that we confirm that the goods are onboard the afternoon flight. Makes everybody panic. Been calling so many times to get my Taiwan Partners to help. so many parties were involved in this operation....... really damn exciting & interesting.

Stupid........just got off the phone with the ground handling DM..........hope he can release the damn goods to Party B and my handphone will not ring................. er....................

sickening

2005-06-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

half day like no half day............. fustrating............. finish work like never finish.................. wat to do? why why why?????? it seems that i've been complaining almost everyday........damn the sianx...... na..bei....
can somebody adds colours to my life...........my life is fading like a withered flower...........pls help..............i going crazy lah...............

late

2005-06-17T17:26:00.000+08:00

today morning seems like a sunny day. the sun was shining so brightly when i went to work. i was late.........cos i actually overslept and worst, i cant find a single taxis cos all were hired.
by the time i reach office, its already 0930hours.... rush like crazy again. finally.........enrober shpt came in.......and everything is in control, finally. today out of a sudden, it was raining dogs and cats........the weather nowsaday really very difficult to predict. even simple simple things also got cork up......don know what is happening around the world now.........................but i can predict i might be quite tight up next monday...... the French Embassy ship has just embarked today at the changi Naval Base and we will be standing by for all their ships spares for Paris............lucky they will be sailing off next thursday...........yupee.......... but i there will be a casino gaming shows held at Raffles City and i have two lots of exhibition goods coming, but lucky it will be a turnover of doc and goods..... not a door to door. save my troubles............ hopes everything will be in good order, so that i can don worry during the weekends abt my work and can relax a bit more.................

facts of life

2005-06-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

really damn stress men.............. don know how to put it............ maybe getting too old and don know what is happening around me............ just cant catch up with the youngsters now........ poor thing, even my blog also have to let me cousin helps me...... anyway........ thks a lot........ times flies so fast, i mean during work you know, everybody just like a robot rushing here and there. Grandpa just passed away last week, and for me four days not at work makes me feel a little bit uneazy but at least, my cousins were at the funeral wake with me whole days, not so boring...........and i suddenly feel so young and i mean a little bit childish, you know playing with kids & youngsters really makes u feel not so old. Not at work, you have to act like very mature to tackle problems...... really damn sian. why are there so many problems, all done by human....... i means especially you have to deal with those ang moh......... haiyo.........really the damn wasting time. when you at work, they are sleeping over the other side and by the time they replied your mails, my gosh!!!!!! its knock off time, really defeats the purpose............ but wat to do, this is my job that means is still my job, you cant do anything unless you fuck your boss off and pack your things and go........... that saves the trouble........
weekends approaching.......really want to rest at home only for one day cos sat have to work................... work.........work.................

suae

2005-06-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

i just don understand why my "eight character" dont match with my customer, "enrober", always cork up. i mean how many times must i explain to them. how come they just don understand and i need to explain to them on and off. so fustrating you knoe. very fustrating. i mean goods being off-loaded in the freight industry are fucking common. just don know the brains are made of wat, is it ba zhang.who knoe..just hope that wont happen another "mlis ten" case. or else, hee..... don know who are the parties involved. migh t be nnaf wong, or rihc lee. i don care a damn, not my concern. better keep out of such fucking bussines of them, is it my fault, not my fault....... maybe they are just to suae...........